May 12
Puzzled!
First before, lemme thank someone from another blog I visit and comment. Choco.
If your reading this Choco, I wrote this cause you inspired me to.
Wow, its not everyday someone tells you they like your for being you. I thought I was the only one who read my site besides my friends over at Animebreaker.com
Well I’ve been puzzled lately. I’m stuck. Ive got writers block and I dont have writers block! Is that even possible. Check this out.
There I am in my car everyday. And I mean everyday. Listening to my beats. Over and Over and Over again. There’s two beats I have in particular that I like a lot.
One is a beat for the club. A sexy uptempo club banger. The other, is a uptempo beat that could be for the clubs. Its like one of those beats that can be anything cause its fire. Well Ive had some pretty good ideas on what to do with them. So why don’t I jot them down, you say? I’m a little scared.
I think that what I do sucks. I really do. I mean we got some great music up here. I helped make it. But I have yet to do anything and post anything that’s completely me. The writing on this site is done by me. The upkeep is done by me. I started the label. I spent the money. But, I don’t have enough confidence to just put myself out there. But the people on the net I’ve been running across have been giving me the courage to just do it.
I’m gonna pick up the pieces to this puzzle and go Nike on those beats. Just Do It!
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Hey Trez im a writer and an artist so i understand the block it comes and goes but stick
to your vision and goals but dawg on the real u gotta stay confident people feed off of weakness feel me dawg!
Yeah.
That is my weakness. I’ve been working on it for so long. I have no idea why I’m so shy. I think I can’t handle criticism well.
Im working on it tho for real. I’ve got the talent to write. I just need to execute.
Oh yeah i love your vulnerability it takes a strong man to admit that but hey you don’t suck look at all you have accomplished if u wanna suck get something to suck on but you dont and conquer your fears you r on the correct journey to discovering you!
Yeah but I hear other people. The ones that are good lol. And I find it hard. I hear my voice on the mic and I just cringe. I’m not used to that. I be like man that sucks. But everybody be like man you killin that song. I be like I dont know man.
Also btw Choco. We can talk here just like we do on NecoleBitchie. But I dont want her to think I’m stealing her readers. I really like just talking over there.
Your ass aint shy your apprehensive who cares about those who may not feel where u r comn from im not for everyone either your cute i know the ladies stroke your ego wth you shy about oh i get it you want to be liked by everyone well that’s unrealistic honey.
Necole dont run my show we can be here or there can u dig it?
The ladies like me they do.
I want to like me. I think I’m a lame sometimes lol.
I rather talk to you here. She cant close the topic here lol!
Lame about what specifically speaking
Yeah what do you think that is?
You think I’m just scared to fail?
I dont mind talkn here sometimes her topics bore me what do the ladies like about u?
Ah I think the lyrics I come up with arent as good as others. Or my voice isn’t as good as the rest of my fam or the dudes in the industry. I’m kind of scared to compete. But when I write, I know my shit is on point. But my mind be telling me its some bullshit. I be like wtf. Even with my face. Do you know how scared I was to post my pics. When girls on NB started talking about me looking cute and emailing me too. I was shocked I really was.
Yeah I think u r scared to fail but fear is stupid it’s not gonna stop whats comn your way so fuck fear I used to always be scared only to realize that it didn’t matter I had to face what I had to face
Ladies say I’m cute. And if they know me, they like that I’m an intellectual kind of guy. I’m computer savy. And I can talk about almost anything. I can carry a convo. Girls say the way I talk to them is the best quality I have.
I may redesign the site. And make it so music dont play unless you want it to. But Im gonna have to move the player around the page a bit to get it to look right. Also I can post topics here to talk about, besides the same shit at NB. Ive got nothing but space here.
Well thats attractive also you don’t even know how you r and yeah the ladies are not lying you look better than your cousin to me on the real go for it Trez throw caution to the wind and go for it i know you can Im a single mother and shit aint always been gravy go for it or like you just do it!
Yeah im not even going to explore that wit u for real Imma keep platonic but i see why they like u fa real
Yeah for real. You really did make me start blogging again. I was saying fuck it and I dont feel like it. Cause I felt like I was talking to myself. Ahh thanks for the compliment. I hate to take pictures too. They dont do me justice. I think I look 10x better. But I gotta learn how cause I have to do album covers. Im not putting out CD’s just mp3s and put it online. I’m gonna need a shit load of pictures to do that.
Takes them pics son on the real it’s not a bad look at all trust!
So what kind of art are you into and where can i find it?
I write and paint you wont see my painting yet I dont have a website but I write poetry and I wrote a book my writers block would last for a year no lie but i kept at it
Damn you had writers block for a year? Holy shit! You kept writing. Were you satisfied with what you had while writing through the block?
No i was satisfied becuz i had the block i wrote better when the block was gone so its a real thing it just gives you time to write a better story
Yeah but with recording. Writing is like half the battle. The hard part starts when it comes to putting the song together. Its so damn hard to record. People think its easy but its not. Trying to have energy and doing it over and over. I gotta record myself now too. That sucks ass.
trez shut up and do what you gotta do you already told me you are a good writer nigga clear your mind stop trippn
Yeah lol I told you. Thats my problem lol.
ok, so what ya’ll talkin bout? LOL
Hey so_mean. Why do you not like what you do either?
@So mean this nigga trippn thinkn he aint great
@Trez yeah i know that’s your problem n since you know it conquer it you thinkn to hard about it go with the flow
basically…i kinda think it sucks…LOL
i think artists do that..we need reinforcements
@Choco
My homie, he does marketing. He thinks im trying to hard too. He says I’m not letting my artist breathe cause Im thinking to hard.
hey choco..i saw you said you paint. now THAT to me is impressive.
@so_mean Where is your music. I like to hear new music all the time.
trez are you a virgo???
Yeah painting looks hard as hell to do. Yeah that really is talent right there.
I am a Gemini. I turn 26 soon.
i write songs (but i’ve only ever let someone read one of those), poetry (no one reads that) and stories (one i’m currently writing on my blog…notice i said currently, cause i was supposed to be posting something i already wrote)
Sup Trez. I feel like I’m intruding on you and Choco lol
i asked b/c that’s a VERY virgo trait (over-analyzing) and i should know…LOL
hey court..i’m here too…LOL
@ so mean girl thanks becuz im self taught and people have really gave me great reviews and was like paint me a pic so thanks MA
lol @ intruding.
hey so mean and choco
Court hey girl what you talkn bout you can intrude on Trez website stop playn me
I’ll read it. I don’t want to just rap. I like to write songs. The dude I have singing for me in that one song, hes gonna demo my RnB tracks so we can sell the entire songs. I want a songwriter grammy. I don’t want to rap forever.
@so_mean Link me to your stuff I want to read it.
@Court I know you sing too. Where is your songs at? I gotta hear them.
its only the first entry (i update again this weekend)
http://realadulttalk.blogspot.com/2009/05/coco-chronicles.html
court you sing? *sigh* another talent i envy…LOL
choco…if you got it you got it. i don’t think you can be taught to be great–there was something already there or there wasn’t. you can only be taught how to hone your craft
Im a virgo so mean so that was wild and trez you not overthinking shit to much
@so_mean
I like that it was really nice. What kind of story is this going to be?
I would never let anyone hear what i previously recorded. i’m gonna start working on new and better material
So I’m not over thinking? I thought I was. Everytime I want to do something, I make an excuse not to do it.
@Court You gotta let me hear it. You can even send me the files. I can work on that shit.
trez u r ovrthkn shit thats what i meant to say
thanks…
did you see anymore of the blog? LOL cause it will probably be a wild ride. I took Coco from an unfinished novel…so she’s a bit much…i think LOL
choco..so you know what i mean then..LOL
Well I’m gonna start recording stuff and putting it here. I do a podcast too. But I haven’t done one in awhile. You girls have mics and what not? I could interview you and put you in the podcast. Using skype or something.
@so_mean Yeah I’m gonna stop in and comment. I meant to write all over Courts blog. I be forgetting.
trez this feels dysfunctional…talking to you on 2 places…lol
i tweet my updates though
I would never ever let anyone hear the material I used to do. It was pretty bad. lol. I’ve been thinking about doing some new things on my own terms
didn’t mean to double post my pc is trippin guys
So mean whatu sayn
Its the internet. Talking to me in 2 places is okay. I monitor it all. Im shy and all that mess. But Im internet elite! Thats for damn sure lol. Court dont worry about dbl posting here. I own this bitch lol. So mean talk to me here if your confused lol.
Choco I want to read your work! Court send me a song. I wont laugh.
bad in what way court? the music? the lyrics? cause that might not matter…i’ve heard some great vocalists sing some terrible songs…but the voice can often stand out most
Hey Trez I want an interview???
you understand over-analyzing…i’m a virgo too. the words that best describe virgo’s is “i analyze” LOL…and i’d like to stake claim to that…but its in my astrology book…LOL
Trez would i be banned lf i said i dont like your label name : (
So mean i gotta a virgo sis in the house that wsup : ) yeah girll anal is how analytical we r lol
Nah. My Label names comes from the Street we grew up on. We all grew up on E 7 Mile Rd. So we make Seven Musiq. I thought it was nice lol.
@trez ok i will write something tonite for you and your self doubt n type for u tomorrow it will be inspiring
Choco I’ll interview you. Ill figure out how to record the convo and make it into a pod cast. I got a post up here of a podcast we did in like an hour. I gotta good feedback on it.
the material is bad. it reminds me of that sing songy rap from back in the day. bone thugs lol.
anal would be an understatement for me. i get on my own damn nerves
lol Banning people. Who does that? I wont ever do that.
Choco I didn’t know you were a writter. I’ve started a novel recently. I’ve attempted like four times but always get distracted
Im gonna interview so_mean too. I want to know why shes writing erotica lol.
Court Quit ducking me and SEND me a damn song girly.
Your right it’s nice but it doesn’t speak to who u r u created this so name it for you and taking on some advertising cant hurt
I dont want to put ads on my site, cause it takes away my integrity. If you come to my site you come to chill, listen to good music, and vibe with me. I’ll get paid off album sales. Will never be ads on here.
Trez what kind of song you want? lol
Court Just send me the one your most proud of. Thats what I have up here. The ones that im okay with. But im still self conscious.
LMAO!! cause i’m a very erotic person…hello
so_mean I thought that. I just didnt want to offend you lol.
ok i can dig it but business is business and i am a business woman r u gonna brainstorm on a name that represents you today?
BTW guys your welcome to come here all the time and shoot the shit. Just tell me the topic, I’ll write it up and we can go at it. Also, let me know if you want me to stop the music from playing every time you click here. It annoys me sometimes too.
i’m not proud of any of them. hold on brb
I cant change my name. Its my Tax ID and my real business name. Or at least I dont know how legally. But Seven Musiq Records is a real business. Check my records with the government lol.
ooh choco…you bossy too!! we would either love each other to death or wanna tear each others hair out!! LOL
offend me?!?! do you see my blog?!?! that is VERY hard to do…LOL
Ok im still gonna write for you tonite : )
Choco thats cool as hell! I cant wait to read it.
so_mean gonna have dudes fappin to her stories.
i hope u really know how special u r as a result!
LOL
Choco I feel really really good!
@So mean
girl its a damn curse tryn to make everything pretty i hope we love eachother u virgos love to love ; )
Hey now that wsup Trezzzz : )
Yeah I’m going over beats and lyrics right now. Getting my comp set up for recording. And for doing my anime music videos. Im into anime btw. Not sure if I said that.
@Court
Yep Ma Im an artist : )
Yeah im sleepy love yall n pleasant dreams : )
Choco
Dont be a stranger. Come back lol And I hope you get some wonderful sleep. Sweet dreams.
good night lady!
Man this is so fun. I hope you guys visit and comment all the time. Im always on my own site.
@trez dont insult me im not a stranger : ) nitey nite
Choco I feel even better lol. Im gonna make another post to talk in tomarrow too.
This is great guys. Im out for the nite too. Court if you read this my email info is in the Contact section. Its at the very top of the site. You can send your song there, I hope I wake up in the morning to some of your songs in my inbox. So_Mean is was great to talk to you too. Make sure you visit me here often, and ill be on your blog too. Choco as usual your inspiring me to write again. Will do that. See you guys tomarrow. Bed Time.
night all!
To Trez
From Choco
Sometimes I Wonder…
You know as a Man I wonder, I wonder about my plan, my purpose, my direction. As a Man I feel and due to me or my feelings I feel confused…even though I admit to feeling lost I am a Man, I am a Man with a plan I’m a Man that says I am. I wonder and think and by the end of the day I’m still that man with my own plan.
Written by Tiffany Ocasio aka Choco 14 May 2009
Love it Choco. Thats the shit right there. I’ll put that in a post right quick soon.